i never hide my hatred for anth or anyone.

get used to it.

Blogged @ 11:07 PM


i TOLD u u cant close dalt down.

because now not only I stand against u.
not only my sqdmates stand against u.

but also all ma'ams, all cadets. 38 39 40 41. ALL ALUMNI.

NOBODY will allow u to close dalt down, thickhead.

get that straight.

i read a cadet's blog, and i was rather touched by her insistence that we do not close dalt down. then after talking to ma'am and 38 today about this, i learnt that almost every cadet loves dalt, and doesn want it to close down, and im even more inspired than ever to FIGHT FOR DALT'S SURVIVAL.

im not a dalt head of my time (conneh and jb are), and i wasnt in dalt for the 1st 3 years of my np life (due to parental objections). but ever since i joined dalt in sec 4 (when it was made compulsory), i grew to love it. more and more. so much that i quit huangcheng for lion dance in hwachong (much to the disappointment of choonyenXD) and i still love dalt very very very much. so no matter what the consequences are, i will do my part to fight for dalt's survival in nanyang. because i believe one should follow her passion. and its just not fair to deny someone of their pursuit of their passion and interest just because of some STUPID EXCUSE THAT SOME THICKHEAD CAME UP WITH TO SATISFY HIS OWN SELFISH DEMANDS.

ma'am today suggested that if dalt really has to close down, let 41 finish their syllabus first. and that, i think, is a brilliant suggestion. thickhead better buy it or else. well anw. even if he doesn, we will all get our way.

cos mr always gets her own way, and this is no exception.

so sod off, thickhead.

Blogged @ 10:37 PM


today is blogging day. because its just so boring staying at home. alone.

i love my family a million times more than i love myself. (like duh who doesn noe that)

i love my friends more than i love myself. (duh again)

i miss my cesuozhu :(

alot alot.

going out tmr with maliling and sqdmates!((((((:

finally i wun feel lonely. haha.

theres a void inside me. waiting to be filled. now i noe how su feels. cos im feeling it too. i feel so empty? and staying at home and feeling bored doesn help it one bit. i need to find something fufiling to do to fill the space in me, or at least to occupy me so ill stop thinking of that space.

im getting a splitting headache. the second one in 2 days.

whats with u and ur ups and downs?

why wun u reply?

i hope im not sending u the wrong signals.

im pissing ppl off without knowing it.

im just weird these days. sigh. i dun even noe me anymore.

i have no idea where im heading. but i certainly hope im not taking the wrong steps.

cos i cant afford to make another mistake again.

Blogged @ 4:45 PM


i love this song so much. its by the spice girls haha.

"Viva Forever"

Do you still remember
How we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave ya
We'd only just begun

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

Viva forever,
I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one

Yes I still remember,
Every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I'd heard
Slipping through our fingers,
Like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

Viva forever,
I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one

Back where I belong now,
Was it just a dream
Feelings unfold, they will never be sold
And the secret's safe with me

Hasta Manana,
Always be mine

Viva forever,
I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one [x2]

Blogged @ 3:16 PM


went out with mudd today

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUD!!!!!!:D:D:D:D:D

we first had breakfast at macs, as usual. then we went to orchard! dropped off at cine cos we wanted to watch the last breath and thought cine would have. in the end, they dun seem to have it. not wanting to waste time, we got shane to help us check for cinemas showing the last breath. hahaha asked him for help since he watches alot of movies and thought he might noe. then turns out.. no cinema is showing it! mud and i didn want to believe it, so we walked all the way to plaza sing JUST in case the websites have missed it out (though not quite possible since its such a tua cinema) but as usual, we were wrong. so we settled for gameplan, which turned out to be a pretty good show! very touching and very funny. so the 9.50 (hefty price for a movie ticket, tho its a public holiday but so what? its still like daylight robbery) was KINDA worth it.

between the buying of the tickets and the watching of the movie.. we had like 1.5 hours to spare. so we went shopping!

...as usual. lunch was bubble tea and twisties and subway cookies. i noe i noe. junk food. but its nice! walked into Sasa, where i nearly died-_- thanks to the perfume. i didn noe i was allergic to perfume. but okay la, hahaha its all my fault!XD cos it was like mud's bday, *okay actually, its more like because mud and i are out tgt ALONE* we MUST must do smth siao. as usual haha. so today's siao event was stepping into Sasa and trying out all the tester perfume. THANKS to my lousy aiming skills, i ended up spraying most of the perfume on myself and mud and we walked out of the store smelling like a flower shop.

THEN IN THE CINEMA...

the perfume was choking me. just this particular scent that kept wafting through my airways. im somehow allergic to it; the perfume was causing my airways to close! so i was coughing and coughing like shit cos i couldn breathe-_- so smart lo play with perfume. i SWEAR i wun touch any of those bottles again! the worst thing was i couldn rmb which bottle it was exactly, or which brand HAHA. we sprayed like 20 over bottles la.

somehow i survived the movie, and i walked out of the theatre with mud, coughing my lungs out. we rushed to the toilet, where i took medication. good thing i brought my preventer. tho not inhaler, but nvm, it helped abit. it was better after we walked out of ps. cos like, in the open air, perfume molecules diffuse and all. and i dun smell so much of it!

then we walked from plaza sing to far east, looking into shops along the road. hahaha and i was busy sniffing myself! trying to trace the particular scent which was killing me. but i couldn be sure. so just dao and walk on. then after far east, we trooped to taka and stoned there abit, looking at clothes and all.

then we went home at around 6.30, i nearly died for the 8 seconds i was in the lift HAHA and i came home, showered immediately but.. i still have the scent on me! its so PERMANENT. so yeah im still dying. coughing and all. and its too cold out to go wash my arms to rid myself of the smell. guess ill just have to bear with it and hope the perfume rubs off on my bedclothes then ill be saved=D i can change my bedsheets but i cant change my skin! but its not too bad now cos i have my inhaler with me at least! and my family's here to send me to the hospital if need be. LOL.

moral of the story: asthmatic ppl should never play with perfume! *cough cough*

Blogged @ 10:27 PM


i was just watching the 9pm show on channel 8.

they said,

if a couple can remain good friends after they break up, it can only mean 2 things:
1) they were never reallie in love in the first place
2) they are still willing to do everything they can for each other

HMM.

Blogged @ 9:35 PM


i was just watching the 9pm show on channel 8.

they said,

if a couple can remain good friends after they break up, it can only mean 2 things:
1) they were never reallie in love in the first place
2) they are still willing to do everything they can for each other

HMM.

Blogged @ 9:35 PM


im liking me more and more.

cos i write whatever i want

and i publish whatever i want

this is life, man.

XD

too bad to those who feel offended.

cos mr doesn think shes in the wrong

Blogged @ 12:18 AM


how can u all not fight back?

its our cca they are closing down.
its our family they are breaking apart.
its someone's income they are cutting.
its someone's passion they are taking away.

and to make it all worse,

its SOME IDIOT u guys will be succumbing to.

how can u all not fight back?

************************************************************************************

i dont think it takes much. just a letter? a petition?
im horrified to hear that dalt is closing down. cmon. DALT IS CLOSING DOWN.
were u all sleeping?
when were we known as just nynpcc?
we were always nynpcc/dalt.
nynp in itself is unique. but NYNPCC/DALT is what makes us impressive. singapore's first all girls troupe.

WOW.

thats how everyone went. WOW. with caps.

im not pushing for dalt to remain because of the WOW factor. sure, its tempting. but im pushing because THEY ARE CLOSING IT DOWN WITHOUT REASON.

at least, its not a reason which i would deem valid.

so then, i ask again, how can u just let it go?

how can u all succumb to authority JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE AUTHORITY?

doesn make sense, does it?

even if u have to succumb, at least make sure u succumb for good reason.

if u all have alrd fought hard, i dunno, and still fail to save dalt, then i guess there's not much of a choice. but if u guys have not, then my scolding is justified.

so u guys better do smth abt it.

or WE are coming down.

Blogged @ 12:00 AM


played squash with minting today.

SQUASH IS FUN!XD

watched choral night with my sis and eeanna.

i love nanyang.

sometimes.

nah. actually i just like the building, and the teachers lol.

Blogged @ 11:53 PM


okay. outing in 2 hours! meeting minting at kap for lunch before gg ny. lol. today was destined to be a boring day.

until me and minting came up with some genius plan to keep ourselves entertained=D

but the rest arent gg to like it LOL.

dun care. heheXD

im feeling flabby and i need a workout man. yuzhen's always busy and doesn have much time for me=( so i guess ill be spending this holidays moping abt the house. not too bad actually. ill have more time for myself. ill have more time to be with myself to do what i like to do. haha.

was talking to posana ytd abt pri sch. its so nice knowing everyone remembers all the fun we had in pri sch. its such a.. warm feeling. knowing everyone's missing primary sch like shit. seriously, its only the rvps 2002 students who are missing pri sch so much. haha. and posana was so sweet:

"ill rmb posana forever. even when im an old man, ill still remember posana"

then i went, "the best name huh?"

and posana said, "yup. the best."

damn nice. pri sch friends are still the best. its like, we never had so much fun anywhere else, or with anyone else. no offence to my sec sch and jc friends. haha. u guys are great, but im just missing pri sch=(

sigh.

growing up hurts. real bad.

Blogged @ 10:13 AM


im sorrie

for doing what i did yesterday.

but i guess it had to be done. cos there was no longer any point in holding on. holding on will only hurt.

i gotta move on and be who i am
i just dun belong here, i hope u understand
we might find our place in this world someday
but at least for now, i gotta go my own way.

i sent u this song, if u rmb.

i hope it was a mutual decision yesterday, and not just a decision on my part. but even if u were hurt, u would never let me know. and thats just dumb, keeping it all to urself. if i ever said anth abt not wanting to know how u feel, i take my words back. cos i'd rather be hurt and feel guilty than let u bottle up everything and die from an overdose. at least when i know whats wrong, we share the stress.

and thats what friends are for, as cliche as it sounds. (all these cliche phrases fit in at the most uncliche moments. lol.)

there is never a right time to say goodbye.

but we've never said goodbye. cos we're still friends. we'll still help each other, and laugh(maybe) and talk(maybe). and i still see u as a good buddy. someone i can count on. i hope u do too.

haha rmb the tip i gave u? bear it in mind k. very very very impt;) and heres another tip: get rid of ur sanfenzhongredu problem. cos while u can like an item on a whim, u cant do that to a person. that would mean ure having a fling=ure a flirt. HAHA hard to imagine u as a flirt. okay. am i making sense? lol. nevermind

anw,

thank u for always being here and for everything we've shared(:

growing up hurts.

but life goes on.

Blogged @ 9:55 AM