heyy

life has...been quite....boring.

school has started, boring

huge changes are happening....sweeping us away with it...nvr coming back.

sigh.

shall talk abt LMSC.
its good, and i was the only 37ner in my grp...only nanyang one...haha. life was quite good la. sqdmates were especially nice! cos they noe i was the only one, they noe i cannot do without ppl to share my crappiness...haha so they were super extra nice! they would talk to me whenever we had the chance to get together...and ask me abt my life. hahaha. thank u for all that support bunnie babies! i'll nvr live thru lmsc without u guys.

my grpmates were very nice...but one isnt.

not that u are not nice...u are too nice. and that's creepy.
PH 7 is neutral; less than that, its acidic, and more than that, its alkali.

you will never make an acid. sour, tangy...no. you will nvr be that. and neither will you be neutral. to me, that is. u, are simply, in my opinion, strongly alkaline. yes, alkalis are soapy, they feel smooth and...soapy. but too much of it is bitter, and leaves behind unpleasant feelings and burns. so stop being an alkali. i mean, u are overly alkali. u are burning me. and i hate it. so stop it. could u like neutralise a little...be a little more acidic. i dunno whether there's a problem, but to me u seem fine. most alkalis are anyway. if there is, then maybe u have a reason yourself too. i dunno. but, i just want to let u noe, u are creeping me out.

okay...shall drop that.

my fav: NEW NAMES OF SQDMATES!

after gruelling usage of brainpower and crappmatism....i have finally come up with a new name list!

Bonnie
Ellie (phant)
Cherry (snail)
Merry-lee (me la)
Lily (zard)
Priscilla (graciously suggested by olivia) but i converted it to Pigcilla..so which one u want?=P Chanel (the gracious version of sha-niu)
Betsy
(this took my the longest time...but i finally got it! ) presenting...LYDIA!!! woots~
Olivie
Pollen (grain)
Fern (u noe...poon pei FERN...=))
Minnie (mouse)
Binney


TADAA...aint it HOT...=D
Mary-anne (elongated version of marilyn)

Blogged @ 6:00 PM


hey

havent blogged for a long time... and even if i have they havent been very long.

its 11.33 now. sqdmates are all at sana course. BSP sqdmates are having camp. i'm sick at home. *cries* nvm i'll join the BSP sqdmates when they go for their sana course. maybe i was too excited abt sana course. that's why i got so sick yesterday. i drank coconut juice, then i felt very bloated and felt like vomitting. then, later it kinda cleared and i started having gastric pains. it was 9pm. 10pm, it was still hurting like mad. i couldn tahan and at 11 i ate medicine and went to bed. wah the whole night cannot sleep sia. toss here toss there...it was hurting like anything. then i woke up at 3.30am. reallie cannot tahan. went to eat some more antacid. this time i ate two. then i messaged sqdmates that i cannot go liao...then went to sleep again. but it still hurts...somehow, the medicine doesn't seem to have an effect on me and the pain hasnt stopped since it started. then finally, at ard 4am, i woke my mum up. at first i wanted to get my sis to wake my mum. but she slept like a pig. cannot wake up...so i went myself. then my mum was quite kanchiong. she made me drink milk, eat some more antacid. then she tell me dun go sana, go see doctor tmr. we sat on the sofa for quite a long time to wait for me to digest the milk. then she came into the room and slept beside me. apparently my sis was still sleeping like a pig. and she didn noe my mum was sharing the bed as well, so she took up like 2/3 of the bed and me and my mum SQUEEZED in 1/3 of the bed. aiyoyo. then i woke up at 5.30am. wanted to go sana. but then it still hurt. so i went back to sleep. then, woke up at 6 (my sis woke me up, blurly asked me whether i'm going to school) i was like no cos its still painful. then finally, i woke up at 7.45am...the pain was gone, but it was too late to go...so ya. i'm confined at home now...=(( just went to see doctor. then she gave me a lot of medicine. and ask me to eat. then got some funnie medicine its like want to eat then eat dun want then dun want.

then its like on the way to the doctor (me and my brother) i witnessed smth horrible but my brother thinks its funnie. he's a sadist. we were crossing the road. then my brother was trying to kick some pigeons, and i was yelling at him to stop being so cruel then suddenly, we heard a squelch. i looked ard and saw a pigeon rolled over by a car, blood spattered everywhere and its like...so dead. i seriously got a shock and i (okay, i screamed, and i nearly cried. haha if i didn say this no one would believe i was so calm=P) grabbed my brother. but he actually laughed! he was like: oh the poor flat pigeon! then he started saying stuff like it deserves to die and that its stupid to play on the road. i mean...carn he show some compassion? the pigeon died leh. its not a computer game or smth. then later when we came home from the doctor i made my brother walk a long route with me just to avoid the pigeon. reallie cannot stand the sight of it. and i reallie cannot stand him. haiz. kids nowadays ah... they seem to not be able to differentiate what's real and what's not. they seem to have lost the sense of compassion for living creatures, be it pigeons, humans, animals or even immobilised creatures like plants who only move to face the sun. not very long ago, my brother's friend died in a car accident. i was horrified. he was only 8. when i broke the news to my brother and asked him about what he actually thought of his friend, whether he missed his friend, my brother actually said :" he die better! he so naughty! die already very good!" i was totally confused by his behaviour. i thought he would have at least asked me why he died, and how. (of course i didn expect him to cry. he's a guy after all) and when he said these words to me, it reallie set me thinking. what actually made him think this way? did he reallie mean what he said, or was he just too innocent to understand what death is?

these are just thoughts, and i dun only observe them in my brother. i did have a talk with him. and i do hope he reflects.

sigh...wondering how are sqdmates now. JIAYOU!!! and all the best to them! get the badge k!!! wahaha. my time will come soon.

Blogged @ 11:33 AM


BACK FROM ATC!!!

both happie and sad actually. happie because after so many days of training we can finally have a good rest and reallie sad because this marks the end of atc 05, the last atc with ma'ams. i nearly cried when ma'ams anounced the ending of atc 05. i just couldn believe it. what? so fast? yes, training was tough. many a time, i nearly couldn pull through. i'm just too weak. but the camp was great. it reallie pulled us altogether, to put our best foot forward and give everything the best shot ever. and the bonding between companies, both intra and inter were very close too. i seriously learnt a lot. of course there is the usual alertness. its the key thing. and responsibility, for both yourself and ur company mates, and sometimes, the unit. the most important thing i learnt during the camp was endurance and bonding. to me, the camp was reallie tough, especially the first day. i just couldn take the physical training, many a time i thought i was going to die. dunno why, but somehow, i was crying every time. but looking at the rest of the unit and my company mates train and persevere on, i just feel i HAVE to go back to join them even if i fall out. its a kind of love for ur company, that makes u strive on.

Blogged @ 7:35 PM


see sqddies!!! i have new names for all of u. wahaha

jolene kiew-->kiew kiew!/ kiewie!
connie-->coco!/ marh!
huijun-->snail snail!/junnie
me-->haha (no no that's not my name) mian mian../mr
weilin-->leng leng!/gok
peiyi-->gogo!/pigo
yuzhen-->niuniu!/zhen
bixuan-->bibi!/bx
litian-->tian tian/alert!
olivia-->xiuxiu!/ongy
carolyn-->lynlyn!/carol
jolene poon-->guinnie/poonnnn!
minting-->minnie!/minny tinggy tinggy
jiebin-->binnie!/bin bin
marilyn-->quan quan!/liling

Blogged @ 9:52 PM


hello...long time no blog.

been busy with campfire!!! now i seriously hate the smell and touch of kerosene. BUT I LOVED THE BONDING AND CRAZY MOMENTS we had la. hahaha. six pack...hahaha.

we finishing liao. yay!!! very nervous though. i hope it goes well...=)

today.

we did campfire in the morning...had a great time!=) then we went to eat in coro...hahaha. we basically just stoned. THEN ONE SQDDIE BROUGHT UP A VERY EMBARRASSING TOPIC. and apparently ppl started singing "i'm going to marry u tomorrow" in chinese. I WAS SO EMBARRASSED. oh man. *screams and hides face* they were there!!! how???? i want to be their XXXXXXXXXXX XXXXXX lah...how cam anyhow DIU LIAN!!! *screams and faints* HAHAHA...

okay. basically my main point for today is, if nothing's is going to be done, i shall do it. i will be the one to continue. i will be. *sobs* i reallie cannot believe this happened. i reallie cannot bring myself to believe it already happened. i'm not ready to let go. its happening, it happened, but i shall cling on. i will hang on, and perservere. i will revive it.

celebrate the dawn of a century.

Blogged @ 9:07 PM


TIANWANG WAS A HUGE SUCCESS!!!

oh man we were so happy, after all that hard work, screaming away, countless rehearsals and lack of sleep, all that reminders reminding us not to eat any heaty food, no chilli, no chocolate, no biscuits, so basically i didn eat anything at all. HAHA. i starved since 1st june. we finally made it, and the concert ended with huge rounds of applause. i'm reallie going to miss tianwang and its people. i'm going to miss the conductor, Mr. tsung yeh, Ms mei lan, whom i think is the secretary, NAIMA!!! who is one of the runners for the concert, one of the syco members, dunno his name but he took such good care of us that we all called him naima, the technician! who was so meticulous in making sure our mikes work, SUHUI!!! one of the syco members, who was so friendly, and the weird syco guy who took pictures with me and du long seperately. ahha. gave me a shock ya. and i'll miss the orchestra. for those who havent experienced, u have no idea how majestic it can get to have the entire orchestra playing behind u! its absolute paradise and bliss. and the music is WONDERFUL!!!!

and of course, i'm going to miss all my friends. cheryl (not reallie cos i'll still see her everyday), heather, shishuang, lee koon, baona, bo wei, vivian, liuyang, wang jing, feiya, i'll still hope we stay as close as ever, ya? we were reallie close, and its like, i dunno, it seems as though we have known each other for years. i hope that feeling stays ya?=) and of course, there are other friends, like du long and ling gao...(is it ling hao? ) and of course samuel as well. i'm reallie going to miss them all too, though they are guys, but we were close. we only started bonding the day before performance. dulong, as our one and only xue jie!! he admitted it k!!! hahaha. yea, i'll remember that for life. and ling hao/gao, whose name i didn noe and referred to him by pulling my mouth and eyes apart, and samuel, who was an indian who spoke chinese(AMAZING RIGHT?! reminds me of sujesh) he was so detached and i think i was the first girl there to speak to him. haha. I'LL MISS ALL OF U!

actually, tian wang wasn that tiring, we had breaks between rehearsals. so its like on the second of june, i arrived in singapore at 9 am.(I MISSED ACES!!! and i missed atc so much k. poor olivia. missed her too. how come i end up missign everything one. haiz. ) then i flew home, bathed, flew to SCH (mind u, its not school, its singapore conference hall) for rehearsals, which started at 11. then, it ended at 1, and we went out for lunch, and came back at 4, and then we slept until 6, then suhui came up to talk to us, that was when we knew her, ya. then 7.30, reherasals started again. so we practised until it ended at 9.40, then haha i went to the airport to fetch my sis home from china, then i reached home at 12.30 am. haha and i slept my worth, cos rehearsals the next day starts at 7 PM, and ends at 10 pm. so it was fine. then on the performance day, first reherasal cum concert was at 330 pm, and we reached at 1pm. then we went out again after rehearsal, with all our make up and stuff, to take neoprints. haha. and MY CHONG CHONG DIED!! i caught a worm from cheryl chang's flowers and named it chong chong. then as i put it on one of the banisters in seiyu to rest my fingers bo wei came over to say hi and accidentally squashed it. yea...so we threw it away lor. haiz. haha.

the concert (actual one) started at 8 pm. we were ready and re-made up by 730. then we tested mikes and stuff, and it began. we were the finale item, and i was real nervous, so i kept lookign at blank seats, then finally, it ended, and we were like presented with flowers!! even du long also have. haha. then i was real surprised to see jolene and connie and marilyn poon at the door, cos i didn noe they came!! i was so happy, then they were telling me how i looked so nervous, and how tua pai i was...haha. u guys havent seen the REAL tua pai side of me yet ya...i'll tell u next time. haha. its hilarious. =)) then like friends congratulated me, and people i didn noe talked to me too...haha.. i was like oooh...

i didn go home with the rest, cos my mum was there, but i wish i had. =) i'm reallie going to miss it, so much. =)

Blogged @ 11:05 AM