why issit i dun feel the same anymore?

have i changed? i think i have.

im so different now, i guess. my past feels like an etch-a-sketch drawing. all black white and feathery.

it feels so long ago, but yet i noe its still here lingering. i can sense its presence.

sense its presence. yes. just sense. not feel it, not touch it. i no longer have it. its just somewhere lingering around me. but im no longer attached to it.

why. maybe ive moved on?

but if so why do some things keep bothering me? things keep happening, which forced me to dig up my past. if not, there's always my subconscious mind here to remind my happy-go-lucky conscious mind of stuff. stuff that i thought i had forgotten. stuff that i told myself nvr to dig up again.

i dunno. so much has happened in this period of less-than-three-months. both positive and negative stuff. maybe u can say this is one of the little extremities in life, when the positive stuff are reallie vvv enjoyable, exciting, interesting and heartwarming, while the negative stuff is total bullshit.bullshit that affects u horribly. bullshit that makes u cry, makes u stressed,makes u depressed. haix.

nvm. whatever.

im still wondering how i should tell u. how will u react? what will u think? how would u feel?

these qns kept running thru my head over and over agn. yes im vvv bothered by it. and i NEED to tell u. it will also be a huge relief for me. but i dun dare to tell u. because i can anticipate ur reaction. and im scared of seeing it for real. argh. but i oe i MUST tell u. and i will.

okay this is the end of my vvv short post

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