so much to blog, yet so little to say

some thoughts cannot be put into words

oh well.

today went for caiqing at kwong wai shiu hospital...the ppl i saw there reallie saddened me. of course, there are the healthier popos and gonggongs who manage to make it for our performance. they were reallie sweet, clapped reallie loudly for all the performances. i was the datouwawa with mud. then during the course of the performance we went to shake hands with the popos and gonggongs sitting around. i will nvr forget the look in their eyes when we held their hands and wished them a happy new year. it was a look of nostalgia, of elatedness. the popos and gonggongs were tearing when we held their hands...i think they were touched. i was touched too when i saw them cry. then there was this reallie sweet grandpa who kissed my hands. though i did get a bit of a shock initially from that sudden intimate contact, i thought it was reallie sweet of him. later went upstairs with sqdmates and 38 to bai nian to the popos and gonggongs who were sadly too weak to come down. most of them were bed ridden and very very ill. i bai-nianed to this popo who reallie made an impact on me. she was reallie ill, i think lack of calcium or smth. her teeth were dropping out. one tooth was stuck on her forearm. another tooth on the back of her hand. a third tooth was on the bed. there were some ants around the bed. it was reallie very scary, and i was reallie upset when i saw her in this state. however, despite her being so sick, she insisted on sitting up to receive the oranges from me. i was reallie moved. i was deciding on giving her a hug and a kiss. but i'm afraid i'll break her bones or hurt her or smth. so i didn. i just held her hands for a longer time and smiled at her.

then later the ppl started serving food to the popos and gonggongs in the function hall who watched us perform. then i helped mud feed this gonggong...he was kind of cute...we asked him whether he wanted to eat cake, then he nodded. then we cut the cake for him and fed him...then i served this reallie adorable popo. i gave her food, but she didn touch it. i thought she was unable to eat by herself too, so i started to cut the cake and i fed her. after one mouthful, she told me she didn want cake. so i gave her some chee cheong fun. then after one mouth, she also decided she didn want the chee cheong fun anymore. so i fel her some yam cake. then yup, after one mouth, yea u guessed it. haha so cute right! then i gave her some love letters to eat. she just held it on her hand. then i asked her whether she wanted to eat the love letter..and she nodded. so i held one end of it, and she held the other. and we broke the love letter. then she stuffed part of the crumbs in her mouth while i picked up the other remaining crumbs that have dropped on the floor and her chair. when i stood up again and offered her the remaining love letter, she refused it. she's so adorable! haha. i think she was a food gourmet or smth when she was younger. everything the chef cooks just try one mouthful enough. hahaha. in the end i ended up throwing everything away. the only thing she actually finished was the chrysanthemum packet drink. the best part was, after rejecting all the food i had offered her after just eating one mouthful of it, when i got back from the dustbin (i went to throw the remaining food away), she was holding ANOTHER love letter! hahaha! i just looked at her and smiled...then she looked at me, smiled and continued holding the love letter in her hand. sooo cute. haha

i had such a good experience and such a good time at kwong wai shiu hospital. reallie want to go there again...=)

must make a note of places i want to revisit...

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