YAY!! just finished my MASS VISIT to our little neighbourhood. mm...as the newly appointed ALERT MP, i think i should be doing more mass visits. AHAHA! hey litian! do i get paid for this? =P yay...like RC liddat. hmm mass visit. hahaha. everyone, must da4 li4 zhi1 chi2, support the ALERT committee!! whee! and also must join the rabbit clan! now we have 3 members of the rabbit clan

me (pres)
jolene poon (vice pres)

and hunette (the bad guy)

yesh! so its up to us to defeat the bad guy!! come join the rabbit clan!!=)))

okay. serious serious. HC IS COMING! omg its fridayyy. so excited, yet a little scared at the same time. i do hope the sky stays sunny and bright on friday, no impending weather or anything. or the dampness from the sky will not only dampen the ground and our stations, it will dampen everyone's mood as well. haish. then, EOYS also coming. i havent reallie managed to concentrate. perhaps its because i have too many things on my mind at the moment. HC, preparations, extra lessons (though these occupy a lot of my stress space), homework, (a little more to go), and well, u may say its ironic, but while i feel i cannot concentrate on studying for EOYS, the biggest problem bugging me now is still, whether i can even finish studying for my exams. the date today is the 7th september. 23 more days only, and what have i accomplished so far? BIO: respiration, the heart, cells, that's all for bio....then chem hmm i'm done, except for QA which i have to memorise. and chinese and LA i havent touched anything, and by saying this i mean newspapers. physics...nope. the only thing i noe for sure is the formula F=MA...and all the tension stuff. then, SS i havent started, maths also. the only topic in math i am confident on is uhm...frequency distribution? and algebra. and remainder factor theorem. wahahaha. i'm so dead.

i think most ppl around me are like halfway through? and i feel even more stressed because my class is so hardworking. they are the type who can piss off at one person because she started exam preparations earlier. and my sitting partner too, for that matter. DUN GET ME WRONG. there's nothing wrong with her. she's a terrific girl, a great fren, good comfort, and someone wonderful to gossip to. the thing here is, she's very hardworking, and sitting beside her makes me feel dumb and stupid...and when i see her pull out piles of working, i think to myself, oh my god...what a perfect girl. my mum's always yelling at me to work harder and stop using the comp so much. but sometimes she doesn understand, its not that i dun wanna work, its that, sometimes, certain things come before studying. studying, in this case, can wait. we all have to learn how to priotise our stuff. but my mum just doesn seem to understand that. and thus we have been cold war-ing quite often, which isn making me feel better. in fact its adding on to my stress level. so she isnt helping. then, she tried to do smth called, "enforce a curfew" unfortunately, the plan failed again, because the times when i need to comp are just so sudden and uhm long...that i carn adhere to curfews. its crazy and i'll die. then my mum tried something called "let go". yeah. so, great. she let go of me. and all was well and i was happy until not too long ago when she decided she was losing out by letting go of me. she decided i was becoming worse and worse by the day. so uhm she started gripping onto me again. okay. maybe she's worried. but...like what's there to be worried abt? my logic here is, if i work hard i do well, so be it. if i didn put in enough effort and i fail, so be it. i dun see how mum comes in. my future is decided solely by me. yes, i noe what i do now can greatly affect my future. but i'm 15, i noe exactly what i am doing. i'm not an adolescent anymore. i have got brains, to priotise, i have got eyes, to see, ears, to listen and block out unwanted garbage. see. we werent given these organs for nothing.

i hope my mum will understand.

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