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ahha bin complained i didn blog enough. okay. i shall blog.

smth worth blogging la...=)

the past few days passed with a blur...i didn go to school today. kena hives everywhere on me...whole body. its like yesterday we had napfa retest. then went for it la...though i got A or B for all stations...just didn finish 2.4. so ya...then its like, dunno why, after sit ups, very giddy. then it got worse...i started numbing all over...and my breathing was horribly hard and fast. then i got real numb, in my fingers and legs. but i tot it was okay...and i wanted to do IPU/IFAH. but the instructor took one look at me and asked whether i was in great pain...i just told him i feel numb, but i'm okay. then my fingers and legs got number and number, and i only realised something was wrong when i cannot prise apart my own fingers. they won't budge. then i started crying somehow...dunno why. then my frens carried me up to some bench and made me rest there...then i dunno what i mumbled but they went to find sqdmates, and pollen and cherry came to help me. yar...then after a long time i kinda recovered from my shock/dehydration/hyperventilation. rested for a while (cherry's and pollen's demands)=) then i went to finish up my IPU/IFAH. it was then that i started itching. i thought it was mosquitoes...then later i realised there were too many to be just mosquitoes...ahha then later cherry helped me put mopiko all over me. then when i got home, it got worse...started expanding until i cannot tahan. my mum insisted i go see a doc so she didn want me to go to school. then i spent the night scratching myself...morning woke up to pass stuff to felicia to give to chanel/pollen...then went back to sleep, from 9.30-10.30 then woke up and read stuff...did proposal...then go see doctor. then the doc was like, "hmm, i think its exercise that caused the hives." i looked at her with a shocked look on my face and said, "but i'm in npcc leh". then she looked embarrassed...and she said she dunno liao. haiz...

dunno why nowadays so many things happened...makes me feel so lost and confused. why is it, thatlife is becoming so difficult? schedules are so tight...its choking. i dunno...i feel like i am on clockwork...then its like, i cannot take it liao. i reallie want to sleep early, i HAVE to...i WANT to...but now its like not a matter of want or dun want, its a matter of must or must not. i WANT sleep...but i cannot have it. what is it so difficult about change that makes u hate it? why must there be change?

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