i'm so stressssedddd

my napfa is DEAD. i couldn even run my 2.4. i ran 2 rounds and collapsed. literally, as in into the arms of my classmates. i think i scared them...=S sorrie...=$ i was sprinting, cos i was afraid i wouldn make it (yea i noe it was stupid...dun chide me anymore) then i realised i couldn breathe after the first 1.5 round. i started asking for inhaler...apparently i think no one understood. then i couldn tahan, and just BOM. yeaa. haiz. must build up. ms chang was so sweet. she did breathing exercises with me, and all my classmates were so concerned. thank u everyone.=) special thanks to yijing, the faithful st john's cadet. reallie pro man! then ya...so i got better, and i am not allowed to run until term 3...=( but nvm. got lots of time to build up.

can i die? now? i'd rather end my life than live through this. or...maybe not. i still want my humans scholarship. hmm...did i change my life plan again? okay i didn change it THERE. i will change it NOW. hahaha...oh man this is the dunno what-th time i'm changing it. i'm not studying medicine anymore. BIO IS SO TOUGH TO PASS!!!! *freaking out*

okay. i wanna write plays. i wanna direct. since i love drama so much, might as well go into it in the future. i'll be rich anyway...=P okayy. so...erm. in JC, i'll work for the humanns scholarship. (good deal u noe...guranteed place in top universities in the world, like harvard my dream school...) and i wanna take chem. (am i allowed to combine literature and chem?) dunno dun care. okay, so that's settled. i'll go for that. yayyy. =) one burden off my mind. i feel that sometimes ppl are a little dumb. i'm not gonna specify WHO exactly, but well...from reading u should guess. lemme clue u in. its got smth to do with politics and social and economical matters. ah-ha! okay. u noe THEY shouldn make us study too many subjects. as a young person, no longer an adolescent, i feel that we should have the right to choose for our own future. like, its not fair to make us study subjects that we absolutely detest (sometimes u dun get to choose) and cannot ever do well in. and when we fail and fail again, they take it as we are not working hard enough, and still put those DREADED marks into our average, pulling all the good marks down. let me stress this. THIS IS NOT HELPING SINGAPORE. NOT THE ECONOMY NOW OR IN THE FUTURE. AND WORSE OF ALL, ITS NOT HELPING THE KIDS, WHICH IS US.

listen, i have a little strategy, if u could call it that way. wouldn it be better, if we were given a choice to choose what we want to study, study it well, and professionalise in it. yes, of course u must have the basics. i feel that, we should study all subjects until around sec 2, streaming, then we would choose the particular subject we feel we reallie want and need. that way, i promise we would churn out more THINKING scholars than we are doing so now,(and even now, i dun think even 50% of our "scholars" can think) and we would reallie fufil the huo2 dao4 lao3 xue2 dao4 lao3 erm...wassat? a theory? yes. i noe that we do get a choice in university. but by then, its too late. why dun we start from young? for professional, super models, they are trained from young, diet and all, that's why they always look so fabulous. for professional gymnasts, they train from young too, that's why their flexibility is there, and they can win medals for the country. -when u have the passion for something, u will want to learn more about it, strive for it, and put in your very best in it.- wouldn it be better, if everyone could study what they want to study, and because of passion, strive for perfection in that subject? doesn it make more sense to study for something because u love it, instead of studying because if u dun u will fail horribly and cannot be promoted? think abt it. seriously.

now the situation here is, we study 7, 8, 9, 10, subjects in secondary school, and that's seriously NOT GOOD AT ALL. go global and seeeee.
firstly, the kids wun be zhuan1, which is something like, noe a bit of this and that, here and there, but nvr a very detailed picture. smth like what we would call ban4 tong3 shui3. why allow that to happen???? some dudes rock at science. some at math, or even chinese, and happen to suck at everything else. why dont we allow these ppl to study what they want? what they have passion in and are good at? instead of making them study until lian3 qing1 qing1 for something they dun even noe what the hell is talking about. for those who are not good in their studies, which is like fail and all (i'm going to be direct. i'm not going to beat around the bush so sorrie for the offensive language) u dun have to force them to study or anything, u dun even have to force them to retake their psle 3 times. just let them retake once more, and if they fail again, ask them a simple question! "boy/girl, what do u want to be when u grow up? do u still want to take the psle?" give them time to think. a few days or a week, let them talk to their parents, or rather, the teacher should talk to the parents. (here's where the job of an educator comes in.) the teacher should be rational enough, sensible and wise enough, to direct a path that he/she thinks should suit the child most, for the person who knows a child best in terms of school work is not a parent; its the teacher whom the child sees everyday. if the answer is yes, then, fine. retake. if no, then allow him/her to go elsewhere, like the media, or such, as long as its his passion, let him pursue it. AND ANOTHER THING. i feel strongly, that posting to secondary schools SHOULDNT be decided in a DAY!!! its crazy! how are u supposed to decide ur future in a day?! make it longer! most children, i observed, regret their choice of secondary schools. why make them miserable? give them a few days to decide, and u will have more happie ppl around.

secondly, THE EDUCATION SYSTEM IS SPOILING OUR CHILDHOOD. isn it sad, parents, to see other children in other countries spending their lives playing and learning through playing, yet they do well in their studies, but looking our children in singapore, we are mugging away in books, no time to play and everything(if u think going out and such is play, u should see play overseas) learning only from books and studying for marks. this is terrible. that's why our children here are pathetically un-street-smart and brainless whereas the children overseas are more mature and hui4 bian4 tong1.
one line to add: change the education system. please.

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