I SURVIVED THE WEEK!!! yayy!!!!

awkay. first things first. jiebin, i need to apologise. this is all my fault. see ah, I didn tell jolene that i wanted to come along. (forgot, anyway, it was something trivial) so i didn noe u all would wait. thus when we didn see u all, we assumed that u all were at kap. so we messaged and called to confirm. but no one replied, except connie, she called huijun back. by that time, we were at kap already. so u see, we reallie didn noe that u guys waited for us, thus i dun feel that its jolene's fault. i'm not saying its ur fault either. if anyone has to be blamed, then blame me. =)

yeaa...today was NPDP!! so exciting. i was so nervous, scared i would not be able to hold the flag (pungi(??) pungi and some sqdmates u all would noe this)then in the end, right, i managed to hold the flag for the 3 minutes but my flag didn drop. as in, when i hormat my flag got tangled. i was so upset i cried during senangdiri. it reallie was very very upsetting, for we trained so hard. i just wanted to die there and then. *wails* whatever. we had math test AFTER SCHOOL. and i hurt my finger!!! dunno wat's wrong with it. its swollen, bruised on both sides and i carn straighten OR bend it. poor finger. then today during math test i couldn hold down the ruler, and i ended up pointing the middle finger cos i couldn exert any force on it...bleughh

life is so tragic. now i noe why ppl say ren2 shen1 jiu4 xiang4 yi1 chang3 xi4, cos in the midst of enjoying, something could just plunge down and spoil everything. my life's especially interesting. its like a stock market. one day i could be very high, things could be going reallie well, and the next day my mood can totally change because of unfortunate stuff. example, i got 44/50 for chem and 62/100 for chinese. both papers came back on the same day. before recess i was so elated and esctatic and after recess, i was so upset i nearly died. so depressing. carn my life be stable? i hate this kind of life sometimes. yea sure, its fun, its colourful, i might even write an entire novel on it and no one would guess that that was my life. but with this kind of life, i'll get a heart attack one day and die. its scary. i carn bring myself to face the rapid ups and downs in my life sometimes. life was quite normal until this year. suddenly, my life became rapids in water, constant ups and downs coloured my life, streaking across it with ugky, loud colours, staining and scarring me forever. i hate it. ask it to go away. and dun u dare come back again.

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