this entry was supposed to be written on 6 march 2005
okie look. i'm scared alright? i'm petrified. please dun scare me.
the way u talk is freaky. i'm only 15, no, 14 and i have a long way in my life to go, alright? i have a lot of things to do and i dun wanna think abt all these at the moment. besides, i do not have to think abt it AT ALL. i'm sorrie if i hurt ur feelings, and i'm sorrie i didn say this earlier. but i DO NOT like it at all. not a single bit. all ur sms-es are irking me, and its way too disgusting to be accepted. could u please restrain a little, hold back a little and not be so LIBERAL in the way u talk? u talk as if i'm ur...whatever. i shant say it in front of so many ppl. but i'm embarrassed. for u. could you hold back and not be so...so...desperate?! i dun like u, i dun like u, i DUN LIKE U! u are freaking me! and i cant not reply to ur sms-es because it would be rude, and i was afraid u might get hurt. so i planned something. i did something. i was scared, i was afraid, of what u would do if u found out what i did, what i planned. but i dun care any longer. i will not reply to ur sms-es any more, not talk to u any more. never again. u can hate me, kill me, whatever. u dun like what i planned, too bad. u dun like what i have done, too bad too
i'm sorrie if u get hurt. but this is my life. i will choose the way i wanna live it. NOT YOU. get out of my life. NOW.
Blogged @ 6:14 PM