i'm too innocent. i'm too pure.

i carn believe me.

things are happening to ppl of my age. things are happening to my very own frens. close frens, to be exact. and yet i didn noe. i didn find out. until today. and for the past few days, i have been living the life of a young, fresh 15 year old, happy, relaxed, the only things bothering me being stress and little aspects of life, whereas my frens have been suffering under emotional stress, under pressure. i feel so helpless. i feel so USELESS. how could i, how could i afford to let myself be bothered by such little stupid things of life so that i become so manipulated by my own desires for comfort in my already very comfortable comfort zone, that i close one eye to the outside world, and only have eyes for seeking comfort for myself? how could i??? how could i, complain abt little things in life like school, teachers, frens, when others' problems are much bigger, much more complex then mine??? i'm going to reprimand myself again. by being brought up in a very comfortable zone of comfort, my tolerance level is already quite low. not only mental tolerance, physical tolerance too. my immunity system is quite weak. a little mud, and i get rash. a little more icecream than usual, and i nearly die of cramps during my time of the month. (when i say die, i reallie mean die) . a little more strenuous exercises, i get an attack. mental weakness: although i am not exactly mentally weak, but i do give in to others very easily. (is that mental weakness?) i dun resist much to others, unless they are totally wrong. besides that, i'm also too sensitive, to words, to feelings put across by ppl, thus i get hurt easily, and i reflect much more easily. i should change my character a little. MODIFY IT. i have to step out of my comfortable comfort zone, to not only see the world, to see the ppl closest to me--> MY FRENS. i better wake up and pay attention to what's going on ard me(literally), before i regret any further


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