guten tag!!

wow. been busy. couldn come online last night. i'm so upset. both my bestest friends are suffering in silence. they are upset...having family problems...yet i dunno and still is as cheerful as ever. and the most touching thing is...they both keep it from me for fear that i may be upset for them. :'(...dada was reading my bloggie that day...and he was commenting on how cheerful i am. well..maybe that is because i havent seen enough of the world to be depressed. or maybe, as i choose to think, i was brought up in a such a way that i was trained, literally, to not take anything too seriously. i was trained to look for the silver lining under every dark cloud, no matter how dark or menancing they look. thus, perhaps, as a result, i never feel depressed or pressurised by the darkness of man, by the darkness of society. i nvr feel restrained and i simply do what i like, simply say what i like. thus i began to develop a horrible memory...which is for a good cause anyway...because i'll tend to forgive and forget. even when i get the biggest scoldings, i'll forget them the next day.

i'm the oldest in my family, so i dun get bullied or intimidated by my siblings. since i was born, i nvr had the feeling of being watched, i've nvr felt fear in my family...perhaps fear of only my dad, whose actions are as hard as his words. other than that factor, i didn have any restrictions on what i did, (not to mention the fact that my cousin practised taekwondo on me when i was little) and since my dad's often not home, i reallie am free in the family. so i treat my siblings like my mom treated me...with care and love...and scoldings when they do wrong. and they too learnt optimism=) maybe if everyone could learn to kan kai yi dian, be happy...then the world might be a happier place to live in...imagine, u open the door in the morning, and neighbours are so happy to see each other...just like in drama serials and advertisments. my real life neighbours suck...well, not reallie. there are still roses among the thorns, but most of them are not very nice. when i try to be nice and say hi, they look at me like i'm some kind of an alien. like, come on! we're neighbours! to be more specific, we are of THE SAME SPECIES. is there anything wrong with trying to be friendly with ur own species? ppl may say that humans are the cleverest and most high ranked among all living creatures. i dun agree so. *scoffs yeah right. clever.i wun exactly call killing my own species cleverness. ppl think they are clever when they start a war. ppl think they are clever when they WIN a war. how clever is that, when ur target is ur own species. when ppl are risk, are ur own species. when ppl who die, are still ur own species. and needless to say, ur family may die or suffer, and they are also ur own species. HA. HA. cleverness, i feel, is being able to get along, with ppl, and other living creatures. cleverness, is bringing peace, like ghandi, who refused to use violence to get independence. clever ppl use their brains, not rely on impulsiveness. THINK ABT IT.


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